She's back. .

M.I.C.J. in position. .

Michelle and Irin both came back during the holiday. .

Saturday (22 August)
- Michelle came back at around 5.30pm. . And I went to her house at 7pm and goes to Pasar Malam with her. . She brought gifts for me, Christine and Irin. .

Sunday (23 August)
- Stayed at home and played Facebook. . Until. . 6.30pm.
Michelle called and asked whether want to go Leisure Mall? We thought about watching movie.
I went to her house at 7.00pm and we went to take bus, together with her brother.
We watched UP from 9.15pm until 11.05pm. The movie is funny. LOL

Monday (24 August)
- We've already planned to go Fun Fair since last Saturday night.
Michelle, Irin, Christine and me already planned it. . But then, Irin said her father don't let her go oo. . Something about puasa and haven't completed her studies or sumthing like that. . (Zzz..)
Anyways, Michelle came to my house at around 5.30pm and ate Maggie Mee (her lunch -.-'') at my house (LOL). Then my dad went and fetch Christine. We all haven't eaten dinner so, we decided to eat at Jusco. But then. . . When we arrived, the fun fair is. . at another place. . Which we cannot walk over to (from Jusco to the fun fair)
And so, we decided to go sing Karaoke instead. . We can sing from 7.15pm until 11.30pm, but we went back at 11pm cuz scare Michelle's daddy will scold her. .
Then, we sing alot oo. . Oh, and there's even a buffet. . We've had mee goreng, spagetti, crab, lamb, and soups. . We also had ice-cream. . Hehehe. . Christine took 5 scoops of ice-cream. .
Then we sing and sing oo. . Hahaha. . We had lots of fun. . But, it's too bad Irin can't come. . If she come, sure will be better de. . We'll ajak her again next time. . Half-way singing, I gave Michelle her birthday present. . She said she likes it and was touched, hehehe, I'm glad she is. (^^)
Then the shopping centre already close liao. . Nobody liao. . Except people who are still singing K. . Quite scary. . Then we got down, but all doors closed jor. . But there's still people, workers, at the restaurants. . We ended up getting out from the Pizza Hut de back door. . LOL
We took a picture together. .

Wednesday (26 August)
- Michelle came to my house at 1.30pm to get her tuition papers back. . She borrowed me her tuitions works (Add Math and Physics) and asked me to do them. . She knew I was weak in Add Math. . After that, she went back to Shah Alam liao. .
"Miss me" she said. I will. . I always will miss her. .

Thursday (27 August)
- Went to Times Square with Christine, Jason, Danny, Aaron and Wilson. Then, we meet up with Irin at Times Square. First, we went to play Roller at Sungei Wang. From 11 something until 1 something P.M. I was quite happy cuz at first I didn't fall down while playing roller. Then, at the last 30mins, I started going crazy and went very fast (for me, it's fast!) and fell down few times. In the end, when it's almost time to leave, I skate very fast and I jumped! Yes, I jumped while I was still moving with a rather fast speed. And of course, I fell. Right on my butt sumor. .
I cannot get up from the floor for a full 2 mins. (After that, I got blue black at my butt for a whole week!!)
Kopitiam was next! We had our lunch there. Except for Irin, cuz she puasa mar. . She see us eat nia. . (=.='' paiseh)
We went to bowling next. Aaron and Christine don't want to play bowling oo. . So only 5 of us (me, Irin, Jason, Danny and Wilson) But Aaron also got play! He stole my turns. . (-_-") Sumor he bowl hor, masuk the longkang de. . Christine went to arcade while we were bowling.
Finish liao, we walk around and left Irin there. Cuz she need to wait for another 2 hour to go find her mummy (who is working somewhere at Jalan Raja Chulan, I think)
Me, Christine, Aaron, Jason and Danny took teksi. (Wilson went back liao with his mom) Eventhough teksi can only sit 4 people, we just squish inside. Thank goodness the teksi man let us (of coz oo, we paid extra for it!!)

Then I didnt terus go home, I need to wait at 7/11 at the Bandar Damai Perdana, cuz the teksi didnt go into my house area. So I need to wait and catch a bus. Unfortunely, it was raining. . Zzzz. . Then, Aaron's sister, Carmen, came to fetch Aaron. Me and Jason tumpang her car. . XD she so good. . hehehe (^^)

When I reached my house liao, I was wet. Especially my jeans. . Wet liao~ Rain oo~
Tak sampai 15 mins I reached home, daddy came back liao. . Then he said, "Ok, you all ready liao?" I was like. . SWT!
I took the next 30 mins rushing to change my clothes and pack my bag, then. . we went to eat at Restaurant 118 nearby the Plaza Phoenix at Tmn Len Seng. . Then another 2 hour trip to Malacca. .

Omgosh. . I was so tired. . !

Sumor my HP no battery liao. . So HP need to off. . For 3-4 days while I was at Malacca. .

Sienzz. .

Shout out to the world: HOLIDAY LIAO!

Finally. .

It's time. .

Can you believe it?

After hours of studying, and sleeping, and playing Facebook. .

Our Form 4 Academic 2 Exam took two weeks. .

And it's finally over. .

All that's left is. .

H0ℓ¡d4y

How I felt. . ?

Today, I had Maths Paper 2 and Physics Paper 2. .
(=.='') If my Physics didnt fail hor, really is miracle liao lor. .

Anyways, Physics Paper 2 was the last paper for today, and it was from 10.35pm until 1.05pm, I remembered because it was I who wrote the time on the white board. .

After I was done, I had more than 1hour to spare. . I think maybe even more than 1 hour and a half. . I wasn't too sure because I didn't wear my watch. . But I know I had lots of times left, because when I was done, I had nothing to do and was twisting around on my chair, humming songs, and scribbling on my paper again. .

And when I got home, me and mommy went to eat KFC at Angsana. . Well, I ate KFC, while she eats vegetarians. . But it didnt count as vegetarians anymore since she took a few bites on my chicken (LOL). .

We went to my grandmama's house. . Oh, how I missed her. .
How I missed that looks on her face. . How her voice sounds like. . How she was so compassionate that I couldn't help but had my heart melts. . How she always wouldn't allow me to eat snacks (no more than 1 piece of biscuit a day) and how she always makes me sleep early. .
How she always teaches me to grow up as a healthy and a good girl. . How I always make funny faces behind her backs. . How I used to say I hated her last time. .

But now, I missed her so much. . May the gods bless her. . She had done so much for me, and I loves her. . I love my family. . I love my friends. . (I know this is getting very mushy, skip this if you dont want to read any further)

I'll stop blabbing and will keeps those memories of our sweet past together in my heart. .

Can it be?

-- "ViRtUaL better than rEaLiTy?!"

Have you ever feel that, online friends are better than real-life friends?
I've answered 'No', but. .
Maybe, just maybe, I might answered 'Yes' if you ask me now. .

(-_-") What should I do? There's a time when I feel like want to give up on real life and just escaped to MSN. . To online games. . To Facebook. .

Life is just too complicated. . It's like I'm a lvl 1 human, while the whole world seems to be a boss of lvl 9,999,999. . Seems impossible to fight it back. .

If someone can just escaped from reality and hide inside virtual world, I'm sure lots of people would have done it already. . But they couldn't, (not without losing sanity, of course). .

That's why there's so many cases of people attempting to suicide almost everyday. .
Well, everyone got to survive in the world. . And I might as well die trying to get through my life everyday. .

Who noes? Suddenly, a meteor falls down to earth, or animals suddenly create chaos and dominate the world. . Or hell breaks loose and all demons got unleashed on earth. .

Random memories. . Very random. . .

- Michelle drew on my hand. . This is called. . 'vandalism' XD
January 2008


- Got the habit to write on my hand liao. . Wrote my schedule for the day. .


- Apparently, I liked to take pictures of my hand. . Maybe cuz my face is ugly, so I started taking pictures of my hand. . SWT!


- Cannot see de. . In heaven ar?! LOL


- Behind my school, kokurikulum activites "belajar membakar kentang"
March 2009


- Chee Cheung Fan, brought by my daddy. . Look tasty rite?!


- Look delicious rite? Delicious rite?! T.T sob. . Makes me want to eat it. . But also abit tak sampai hati to eat because look so nice jor. .
- Because I didn't buy it, so what to do? Just take a picture oo. . It lasted longer. . Wakakakaka.
October 2008, at Jusco Cheras Selatan, Bees. .


- My favourite deparment at the shopping mall. . What's better than Candy & Chocolate? Ice-cream and snacks rite? Hehehe. .
From Jusco Cheras Selatan

Some memories. .

I've promised to post more pictures but uhms. .
My handphone's camera really rosak liao!!
But I'm not gonna break this promise. .
So. . get ready! Lots of pictures are coming up!

These pictures are all past photos that I've taken.
Some were just last week, some few months old, and some are even last year ago. .

Enjoy!~

These are all precious memories. . For you and me.


- sitting in the middle of the road, in front of the school gates
- taken February 2009


- pasukan sekolah PBSM practicing berkawat with two extra 'monkeys' (XD) behind from pasukan Pengakap - taken July 2009


- Wei Loon and Christine playing handphones at school. .
- when 'BRAIN JUICE' game was famous in our school, everyone played the game, competing to see who can get higher score.
- taken July 2nd 2009


- when we've got kokurikulum, and was waiting for the teacher to arrive. .
- taken June 25th 2009


- after few mintues later. .
- this is what happened when two gays got bored and started. . 'gay-ing' at the school foyer. (i'm kidding! XP)

3rd day of exam. . .

3rd day of exam. . (wondering if I'm going to write a post everyday during the exam, LOL)

I'm trying my best to keep this blog alive. . But I think I'm killing my readers. . Sorry for making you guys read so much letters and alphabets. . I know these days my posts are fulls of words. .

Today is Biology Paper 2 and Sejarah Paper 2. .

I'm not gonna tell you how was it (because you'll find me complaining and complaining non-stop. .)
So, I'll just describe it in two words : NOT good!

Anyways, I had to stay back for choir practice. . And it was fun. . Wei Loon (my friend and classmate) was going to be our conductor during this performance. . I think he was nervous. . But he manage to make people laugh. . When I sing sing I look at him, I laughed. .

But actually. . when Song Ching Wah (our choir conductor who couldn't make it this saturday and Wei Loon had to substitute for him) almost always manage to make me laugh more. .

I remember when I first first masuk choir club, I see him conduct, I cannot stop laughing de! During midway of performances I also wanna laugh, but tahan tahan nia. . (^^) Hehehe. .

Wei Loon did better today than he was last tuesday. . (^^) Congratz!~

We'll be singing this saturday sempena Hari Merdeka at our school at. . 7.45am! Early morning!~ (TT) Not only that oo, we'll be singing Bahtera Merdeka and. . Rasa Sayang. . Omgosh!
Yes, it's the song that goes, "Rasa sayang, hey, rasa sayang sayang hey~ " and so on. . LOL

I promise to upload more photos as soon as I get my handphone de camera working. . My hp's camera abit 'sot sot' de. .

I wrote this when I was doing my Chemistry exam. . I had spare times (why? because I don't know how to answer anymore questions so I kinda gave up and started scribbling at a piece of empty paper)

I wrote this when half of my brain malfunctions because of the Chemistry exam. . The exam made my brain short-circuit. . So. . I know this is really bad and it barely rhythms but. . it just what I felt like writing. . To express some of my feelings. . Don't be so perasan and get offended. . (^^)

How can someone be that cruel?
I should've never loved you,
Now I'm trapped in this maze,
I can't find my way,
I want my friends and my bao bei,
Go back and recall the troubles you make,
My tears had run dried,
It's time to find someone I like.

My charming prince will follow me,
to shopping malls and never leaves.
He will love me forever more,
Make me laugh and make me warm.
Loving someone isn't a crime,
when you find the one in your life.

2nd day of exam. .

Chemistry paper 1 & 2 and EST paper 1. .

When I got up at the morning, I was already 10 minutes late. .
After 10 minutes rushing to get my clothes on and eating my breakfast, it started. . raining!

Heavy rain sumor. . With lighting sumor. . Every time I blinked my eyes, I see white lights flashing before my eyes (lighting oo)

My mommy had to follow me down with an umbrella because the rain was just too heavy!
All the time I was on my van, the rains got louder and heavier. .

Worse, I was scared stiff whenever I saw the lightning. . It's not like I have phobia to lightning or that I hide in my closet whenever there's rain storm. . I was just startled.

Worst, I sat right next to the door. . I had to open the door for the students to get in sumor. . It's like, I'm the doorgirl and I had to open up the door and close the door for the students. . I guess it wasn't only me. . People who sits beside the door had to become the doorman. . It's like. . a tradition. .

RAWR! Because I had to open the door, I got wet and my hands are like ice because kena the rain. . So damn cold oo. .

And as it rains, I begun to think about my day. I was having exam and I knew I didn't study enough. . And. .

I was thinking, the rains and lighting might be a sign from god to ask me to study more. .
And the more I think about it, the heavier the rains gets. . Call me crazy, I don't care. . Even if it was a sign from god, I didn't do anything. .

And here I am, not studying!

Doing my blog and writing nonsense as the rains get heavier. . Yes!
It's raining! Again!

One day rain twice. . This morning and now (at 8.30pm). . Maybe it is a sign. . For me to study. .

It's getting heavier again. . And I can't even watch Astro. . LOL

I'm not done writing my blog yet. . One last post before I go. . play FB! LOL

Rawr. . Exam liao!!

It's exam liao!! YES!!

Omgosh, first day of exam was tortures. . Add math.
Paper 2 first, then paper 1. .
I wasn't even trying when I got the paper 2. . I skipped questions and questions.
How can I be that stupid nehs?! Yes, I can. Because, I am stupid.
Anyways, I was so carefree. . Like it wasn't even exam lai de. .
I guess I was hoping that it was just an exercise. And teacher will come and give me the answers and all I had to do was copy it down.
I was still half-awake and was dreaming. As if teacher will come running in the class and give me the answers to the exam. .
I make a mental note to myself that I will not only do my best in the exam but will also score high. . I didn't say I made a vow, because it'll sounds like I broke my own vows. . I don't like that. . But it's true, I wasn't able to keep my promise to a friend when she make me promise to study everyday! I'm sorry to her, and to myself. . If I won't study, then I will receive the consequences.
I'm 95% sure that I will fail my add math. .
The only thing I'm worrying about is whether I can get a score higher than my previous score (which is only 19%). .

Second days of exam was as worse as the first day. .
Chemistry paper 2, English for Science and Technology paper 1, and Chemistry paper 1.
The day before my exam, I tried studying at home. I really took out my chemistry books.
But unfortunately, it was already late at night (around 11pm) when I took my books out. And I was sitting in front of my television. .
I ended up reading for only 15 minutes and the television manage to have my undivided attention until it was 1am. I tried reading again, but only manage to read the chapter 5.
(Exam coming out chp 5 and chp 6 only)
And chapter 6 remains untouched. .

-- "I miss you so much it almost felt like a crime." --

I want a time machine. I want to go back in time.
Yes, I have regrets.

I want to go back and do the things I failed to do so.
I want to tell someone what I actually felt.
I want to apologize for the time when I hurt them.

I was childish and now I regret the things I have done.

This is life.

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No one can see pass the facade she created,
No one knows what she had done to them,
Because behind that gentle warming smile,
Is a heart corrupted by malice and vile,

She's trapped in this labyrinth,
and will never find her way out.

She screamed and shouted and struggled--

No one heard her.

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How can anyone hear her?

Even when she screamed so loudly.

Lost within the labyrinth.

Please, rescue her and take her away from this place!