Bears' Collection. .

My collection of bears~

My latest and newest and most precious and cute and favourite bear is,

A birthday gift from Michelle. .

Bear-bear (left) and Girl-girl (right) are gift from Danny and Michelle, respectively. 

ps:- I love teddy bear that are cute, adorable, soft, hugable. I can't handle bears that looks creppy, have huge bulgy eyes, and have a creppy smile. . >.< Remind me of a scary looking clown. . 

Birthday Gifts~

The first present I received is:

From my mom. .

Contact Lens~ (not passport cuz. . too lazee wanna go to the dunoe-what-jabatan to do it. . so yeah! maybe passport next time ba~)

- Received few days before my bday. . 
Thank you so much, mummy, I loved it. .
(ps: but sadly, until now hor, still kenot wear, I kenot get it in. . T-T yeah yeah, sue me! blek~ :-P)

Second:

Of cuz, from my dad!

I waited for this like. . weeks ady~ I remembered crying for a few days when I got home from school, and my precious PSP is still not here~ Then, two days (i think) before my bday, I just came out from my room and saw my dad smiling at me. . I looked around, and there!! It was there!! Sitting next to my lappy, was my new precious PSP! 
I picked a piano black cuz I think the colour is really nice and classic. . My current fave game is: Crisis Core: Final Fantasy VII. . (Zack is super kiut!)

Thank you so much to daddy for buying me this! I love it more bcuz it's a present from you!~ 

Muackss to daddy and mummy~~ F.A.M.I.L.Y always~

Thirdly, and of course, one of my fave!
From my best and closest friend, Michelle!~

A super cute teddy bear from Michelle~

I totally love it! It's totally hug-able, super cute, and nice! Nice! NICE! Smell so nice~

I wanted to name it "bear-bear" but. . I already had a bear named that and Mich said to name it something girly oo~ I thought about Miki and Michelle, but in the end, went with the name "girl-girl". . 

But my brain sot-sot de, sometimes, I wont be able to remember my bears name. . But this time, I remembered, bcuz it's super special~

Lastly is:

A necklace from my aunts. .

 

 My aunts never failed to give me present every single time. . I'm really grateful to them. . (^^) Thank you~ Thank you~ (but I dont think they know about my blog, so thay wont be able to see this, lol!)

The phoned me and asked what I want. . I dont know what to say, lol~ Haiz~

This necklace was bought at ISetan. . And. . it costs RM99.90. . . . *speechless* omgosh! A RM10 necklace also okay ady de. . Pretty ady also can liao. . No need so expensive. . 

(>.<) They always buy expensive expensive clothing for me. . I'm so grateful and thankful!

Then, uhms, wanna thank those who wished me a happy bday~ Thank you ♥ Thank you !

Some of those who wished me:

Michelle ♥ (wished me few hours before 12am, at her house, while giving me the gift!)

Wilson ♥ (his msg is something like this: "no brain, happy bday." thx alot! LOL)

Christine ♥ (eventho she no credit, she go curi from her sis and wished me! LOL)

Irin ♥ (she wished me 5 days after my bday, can't blame her, she go boarding skol, at least she didnt forget! thx!!)

Zacque ♥ (at MSN, using the handwriting option, eventho not so nice, but it's the thought that counts, haha~)

Shu Juan Jie Jie ♥ (on FB! Thank you for remembering. . T-T I didnt even wish you on your bday, sorry~ Uhms, wish you now, can mar? >.< Happy Belated Birthday~)

Tan Wei Xiang ♥ (on FB!)

Zhi Lynn ♥ (sent me an email, an e-card, thanks you!)

Jason ♥

Macvee ♥ (hehehe~ so happi~ thank you~)

(I'm pretty sure I missed few people who wished me, but regardless, those who are not listed here, sorry~ But, still, thanks!~ If I forgot to list you, and you wanna get listed, comment me or in the chatbox oo~)

Thank you for everyone wishes and present for me!~ I had a great bday this year~ ♥♥♥

Hehehe. . Got one more person I wanna say thank you. .

Eventho this person never gave me present hor. . (>.>) hehe~ (^^) but. . he wished me. . 5 time!!

Danny ♥ 

(thank you so soo much~ I can't believe u wished me so many time. . Twice on MSN, Three times in SMS~ You wished me 5 times, and I said thanks 5 times! Hahahaha~ thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you~)

Saturday the 14th - A happier day than my birthday. .

- The day didnt started out well. . Mom wasn't feeling so well.
- So, we went to buy mom some cough medicine. .
- After that, we ate pan mee at Anggerik. .
- Then we went to Bandar Damai Perdana to buy me PSP games. .
(This remind me, I'm gonna have to have a post dedicated to my bday presents)
- I bought Crisis Core : Final Fantasy VII and LocoRoco 2. .
- Went back home and blablabla Facebook blablabla..

Half of the day gone by~~

- Michelle sms-ed me. .
- And suddenly nia, sms me : "Wanna go lm ltr?"
- speechless. . . few moment passed. . .
- Har??? You came back to Cheras liao meh??
- She said : Yeah, just onli came back. .
- I was like. . Oh. . ok. . LOL

(^^) I'm so touched. . She came back to Cheras just to celebrate my birthday.

- It was raining so heavily, I wasn't sure how to get out from my hse. .
- Then my #1 mom, offered to send me there even tho she's not well. .
- I LOVE MY MOM!!

- Finally, reached Leisure Mall (lm) at 7.30pm. .
- We ate, shop, and played. .
- And I bought my parents anniversary gift (which is 3rd or 5th of Nov, I'm not sure, they also not sure. . sigh~)

- My dad came to lm to pick us up. . At 10pm. . My #1 dad. . He may be scary at time, but totally lovable and 'penyayang'. . 

- When we reached Michelle's house, she gave me back my books and. . a box. A present. A gift. A bday gift from her to me! Totally SWEET! I love Michelle so much!

- She said : "One condition, do not open the bday gift until I reached my house."

- When I was back home, without changing my clothes, I went and opened the box.
- It was. . . *wait for suspense* TEDDY BEAR!
- The teddy bear was soo hug-able, soft, and SUPER CUTE!
- Michelle knew I wanted a teddy bear that is hug-able so I can hug it. .
- Apparently, she searched all over Sunway just to find me a teddy bear. .


- (^^) Thank you so much!!

Friday the 13th~ LOL - A happy and enjoyable but tiring day. .

Last day of exam : 13th of November (Also a Friday the Thirteen)
    - Add math paper 1 and History paper 1. .
    - After that, me and Christine went to Sungei Wang (Kam Ho)
    - We've been planning few weeks ago. . 
    - I bought my clothes to change at her house and went with bus.
    - We reached at around 2pm and went to roller rink to find JJ (Jun Jack)
    - Roller for 2 hour and a half when the boys (JJ and 4 other friends) wanted to sing K.
    - Went up the stairs from 3rd floor to 5th floor but kenot sing K cuz no more room ler, so we walked back down the stairs from 5th floor to 1st floor.
    - Went to eat McD and back to Times Square and went shopping for a bag. . In the end, didnt buy any bag also. .
    - Wanted to go back liao, but then. . suddenly, the boys all went and played Snooker. .
   - (=.='') I wanna go back liao, they still wanna play Snooker. . I damn speechless jor. .
   - Sit there with Christine and waited lur. . I wan go back but JJ said wait oo. .
   - Wait lur. . 
   - Wait sumor lur. . 
   - Wait. .
   - And waited. . 
   - FINALLY! One hour later~
   - JJ and 3 of his friends took monorail back. .
   - One of his friend go home at 10pm. .
   - 7.15pm, I need to go to the bus stop but dunoe how, luckily the other friend who-stayed-until-10pm showed me where it is. . LOL
   - So jam~ Reached my house at 8.30pm. . 
   - When I got back, I terus on my compy and played SDO-X.
   - Played until 10.15pm, I got up and. .
   - And. . OMG! OMIGOSH! MY LEG!!! So heavy and pain and tired. .
   - I can barely move my legs. . It felt like elephant leg nia. . Zzzzzzz....

Requesting birthday presents. .

Every October, I would never forget to ask my parents, "What are you buying me for my bday present?" and they would always answer, "What you want?"

This year, I really wanted a PSP. . 
I've been ranting to my mother about a PSP for almost one week. . About how I wanted to play Persona 3: Portable and Kingdom Hearts: Birth By Sleep. . 

(But, if KH:BBS not nice how ar? I scare it uses the card deck system like KH: COM. . And if P3P doesnt come out in english version, how ar? There's so much to worry about. . )
And mom eventually told my dad and dad decided to buy me a PSP for birthday. . So yeah, for sure I'll be getting a PSP. .

As for mom. . I don't know what I want anymore. . At first, I thought why not let mom and dad share to buy me a PSP. . But then, I'm too greedy, I do want a present from mom alone. . Mom asked me one morning, "What you want? You tell me la." I replied, "I don't know. . What you wanna buy for me?" (Lol) Then she said, "If I say I buy you a school bag I'm sure you don't want de." I started shouting. "Don't. Don't! Don't le. . If school bag, I can buy myself!" I begged, "Don't arr...."

And I've thought of various thing. . There is something that I wanted. . It's a video recorder/camcorder. . But, it's too expensive for mom to buy me, so I decided not too. . I've also thought of getting a PC Tablet but then I thought that I won't need it. . What do I want?

I want to go on vacations with my family. . I want mom and dad to be happy. . I want Michelle. . 

(=.='') sigh~ How nehs?

So, tonight, I thought. . Ok lah! "Mom, get me a passport."

But it's not confirm de lor, might change my mind again. . 

That's all. .

The end~

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As you can see, I've changed the layouts, again. . =.=''

I missed this layout so much. . There's a slight different than my previous one if you've notice. .

Anyways, that's it!

Trying to be me. . (warning: boys from my class, dont read if u dun wan to get offended)

- Send me to hell. . I don't care anymore. .

I only loves my parents and my girls. . Michelle. . Christine. . Irin. .

Yes, I hate boys, especially those from my class. . They're self-centred creatures. .

 I'm trying to be less annoying while being myself. .

My parents are like god. And Michelle and Christine are like angels. . Irin is like a sunflower, because she always smile and shines. 

I don't need a boyfriend, rite? What's the point? I'll just get hurt, again. 

 A friend told me, "If you're just gonna end up getting hurt and hurting someone, what's the point?" 

Is this. . a disease?!

Holiday is finally over. . We were suppose to have one week and two days of holiday because the form 3 were having PMR. . Today is the last day of holiday and school will re-open tomorrow. . 

I'm not feeling so well now. . I feel so light-headed and I'm shivering cold. . (>.<)
Why nehs? This is already the 2nd or 3rd time this happen to me. Last time, when it was also the last day of holiday, I also not feeling well, like a fever is coming.

Zzz. . Can this be the "cannot-go-to-school-tomorrow" disease?!
(=.='') 

Congratz to those form 3 for finally finishing their PMR. . 
A word of advice from me as ur 'senpai', PMR is kacang putih, you all wait lar, next year, you all will suffer ar! Add math is sooo HARD! (>.<) Jy Jy to all going-to-be form 4!~

* UPDATES 3 *

In just a matter of minutes,

I changed the layout again. .

Into this:

* UPDATES 2 *

Changed the background. . but uhms. . I might change it back. . Cuz not nice lur. . But I worked realli hard on this. .

And becomes :

My flowers. .

I am a garderner. .
I like to be with my flowers and spends time with them, because they are precious to me. . 
Some flowers are easy to take care while some are much more difficult.
If I take care of them well, they'll bloom beautifully. And it always make me smile when I see my flowers blooming happily.


I have a few precious flowers. 
One of my precious flower is beautiful. It had bloom few years ago and still remain as one of my most precious and most beautiful flower. This flower is currently in another greenhouse to be taken care of. 


I used to have two precious flowers in the past. One of them was an orchid and another was a bellflower. Around 6 years ago, the orchid was taken away. After that, I've obtain the bellflower. I never cared much about the bellflower, but soon it's beauty mesmerized me. After almost two years, I've moved to another place and the bellflower never came with me.


I've met three beautiful flowers after that. 
After obtaining them, I've decided to take extra good care of them. One of the flower is blue, another is yellow, and another one is red.


The blue-flower is one of the most beautiful and graceful flower I met. It is rather hard to take care of. This flower is too delicate. I'm afraid I might drown it if I water it too much or accidentally crush it when I'm handling it. But when this flower bloom, it is a very precious sight.
The yellow-flower is a tiny and cute flower. It is easy to take care of. It needs sunlight but doesn't require much watering.
The red-flower is the one I spend most of my days with. It seems so carefree as it dances around the pot. This flower helps me whenever I'm sad. It has the abilities to make me smile. When I see this flower, I couldn't help but smile at it. 

The yellow-flower and red-flower is currently in another greenhouse to be taken care of. Occasionally, these two flowers would be returned to me for a few days while the greenhouse caretaker are having holidays. 
I hope to some day reunite with these three of my flowers. They are so very precious to me.

I want to wish. .

Selamat Hari Raya

&

Happy Holiday

!!

I don't know anymore. .

It's a 10 days holidae starting from this friday (18/9/09) until sunday (26/9/09). .

I soo wanted to go out. . But nobody wanna go with me. .

I miss my friends. . I wanted to see them so much. . I wanna play with them, laugh with them, and be with them. .

Yesterday, at school. .

One of my best friend was crying all of a sudden. .

And. . I couldn't even comfort her. . I was useless and I'm helpless. .

Then, came another friend. . He was able to comfort her. . Help her feel better. .

While I was just standing outside the room, looking from the inside. .

Eventually, I left her with the another friend, and went to the next class. .

I felt like I've failed as her friend. . I don't know what she want or what she feels. .

If you're reading this, I want to say :

"I'm sorry, I couldn't help you. . Sometimes, I just don't understand you. And I know I'm useless.

But, I like you. . That's why, I still wanna be your friend no matter what. ."

She's back. .

M.I.C.J. in position. .

Michelle and Irin both came back during the holiday. .

Saturday (22 August)
- Michelle came back at around 5.30pm. . And I went to her house at 7pm and goes to Pasar Malam with her. . She brought gifts for me, Christine and Irin. .

Sunday (23 August)
- Stayed at home and played Facebook. . Until. . 6.30pm.
Michelle called and asked whether want to go Leisure Mall? We thought about watching movie.
I went to her house at 7.00pm and we went to take bus, together with her brother.
We watched UP from 9.15pm until 11.05pm. The movie is funny. LOL

Monday (24 August)
- We've already planned to go Fun Fair since last Saturday night.
Michelle, Irin, Christine and me already planned it. . But then, Irin said her father don't let her go oo. . Something about puasa and haven't completed her studies or sumthing like that. . (Zzz..)
Anyways, Michelle came to my house at around 5.30pm and ate Maggie Mee (her lunch -.-'') at my house (LOL). Then my dad went and fetch Christine. We all haven't eaten dinner so, we decided to eat at Jusco. But then. . . When we arrived, the fun fair is. . at another place. . Which we cannot walk over to (from Jusco to the fun fair)
And so, we decided to go sing Karaoke instead. . We can sing from 7.15pm until 11.30pm, but we went back at 11pm cuz scare Michelle's daddy will scold her. .
Then, we sing alot oo. . Oh, and there's even a buffet. . We've had mee goreng, spagetti, crab, lamb, and soups. . We also had ice-cream. . Hehehe. . Christine took 5 scoops of ice-cream. .
Then we sing and sing oo. . Hahaha. . We had lots of fun. . But, it's too bad Irin can't come. . If she come, sure will be better de. . We'll ajak her again next time. . Half-way singing, I gave Michelle her birthday present. . She said she likes it and was touched, hehehe, I'm glad she is. (^^)
Then the shopping centre already close liao. . Nobody liao. . Except people who are still singing K. . Quite scary. . Then we got down, but all doors closed jor. . But there's still people, workers, at the restaurants. . We ended up getting out from the Pizza Hut de back door. . LOL
We took a picture together. .

Wednesday (26 August)
- Michelle came to my house at 1.30pm to get her tuition papers back. . She borrowed me her tuitions works (Add Math and Physics) and asked me to do them. . She knew I was weak in Add Math. . After that, she went back to Shah Alam liao. .
"Miss me" she said. I will. . I always will miss her. .

Thursday (27 August)
- Went to Times Square with Christine, Jason, Danny, Aaron and Wilson. Then, we meet up with Irin at Times Square. First, we went to play Roller at Sungei Wang. From 11 something until 1 something P.M. I was quite happy cuz at first I didn't fall down while playing roller. Then, at the last 30mins, I started going crazy and went very fast (for me, it's fast!) and fell down few times. In the end, when it's almost time to leave, I skate very fast and I jumped! Yes, I jumped while I was still moving with a rather fast speed. And of course, I fell. Right on my butt sumor. .
I cannot get up from the floor for a full 2 mins. (After that, I got blue black at my butt for a whole week!!)
Kopitiam was next! We had our lunch there. Except for Irin, cuz she puasa mar. . She see us eat nia. . (=.='' paiseh)
We went to bowling next. Aaron and Christine don't want to play bowling oo. . So only 5 of us (me, Irin, Jason, Danny and Wilson) But Aaron also got play! He stole my turns. . (-_-") Sumor he bowl hor, masuk the longkang de. . Christine went to arcade while we were bowling.
Finish liao, we walk around and left Irin there. Cuz she need to wait for another 2 hour to go find her mummy (who is working somewhere at Jalan Raja Chulan, I think)
Me, Christine, Aaron, Jason and Danny took teksi. (Wilson went back liao with his mom) Eventhough teksi can only sit 4 people, we just squish inside. Thank goodness the teksi man let us (of coz oo, we paid extra for it!!)

Then I didnt terus go home, I need to wait at 7/11 at the Bandar Damai Perdana, cuz the teksi didnt go into my house area. So I need to wait and catch a bus. Unfortunely, it was raining. . Zzzz. . Then, Aaron's sister, Carmen, came to fetch Aaron. Me and Jason tumpang her car. . XD she so good. . hehehe (^^)

When I reached my house liao, I was wet. Especially my jeans. . Wet liao~ Rain oo~
Tak sampai 15 mins I reached home, daddy came back liao. . Then he said, "Ok, you all ready liao?" I was like. . SWT!
I took the next 30 mins rushing to change my clothes and pack my bag, then. . we went to eat at Restaurant 118 nearby the Plaza Phoenix at Tmn Len Seng. . Then another 2 hour trip to Malacca. .

Omgosh. . I was so tired. . !

Sumor my HP no battery liao. . So HP need to off. . For 3-4 days while I was at Malacca. .

Sienzz. .

Shout out to the world: HOLIDAY LIAO!

Finally. .

It's time. .

Can you believe it?

After hours of studying, and sleeping, and playing Facebook. .

Our Form 4 Academic 2 Exam took two weeks. .

And it's finally over. .

All that's left is. .

H0ℓ¡d4y

How I felt. . ?

Today, I had Maths Paper 2 and Physics Paper 2. .
(=.='') If my Physics didnt fail hor, really is miracle liao lor. .

Anyways, Physics Paper 2 was the last paper for today, and it was from 10.35pm until 1.05pm, I remembered because it was I who wrote the time on the white board. .

After I was done, I had more than 1hour to spare. . I think maybe even more than 1 hour and a half. . I wasn't too sure because I didn't wear my watch. . But I know I had lots of times left, because when I was done, I had nothing to do and was twisting around on my chair, humming songs, and scribbling on my paper again. .

And when I got home, me and mommy went to eat KFC at Angsana. . Well, I ate KFC, while she eats vegetarians. . But it didnt count as vegetarians anymore since she took a few bites on my chicken (LOL). .

We went to my grandmama's house. . Oh, how I missed her. .
How I missed that looks on her face. . How her voice sounds like. . How she was so compassionate that I couldn't help but had my heart melts. . How she always wouldn't allow me to eat snacks (no more than 1 piece of biscuit a day) and how she always makes me sleep early. .
How she always teaches me to grow up as a healthy and a good girl. . How I always make funny faces behind her backs. . How I used to say I hated her last time. .

But now, I missed her so much. . May the gods bless her. . She had done so much for me, and I loves her. . I love my family. . I love my friends. . (I know this is getting very mushy, skip this if you dont want to read any further)

I'll stop blabbing and will keeps those memories of our sweet past together in my heart. .

Can it be?

-- "ViRtUaL better than rEaLiTy?!"

Have you ever feel that, online friends are better than real-life friends?
I've answered 'No', but. .
Maybe, just maybe, I might answered 'Yes' if you ask me now. .

(-_-") What should I do? There's a time when I feel like want to give up on real life and just escaped to MSN. . To online games. . To Facebook. .

Life is just too complicated. . It's like I'm a lvl 1 human, while the whole world seems to be a boss of lvl 9,999,999. . Seems impossible to fight it back. .

If someone can just escaped from reality and hide inside virtual world, I'm sure lots of people would have done it already. . But they couldn't, (not without losing sanity, of course). .

That's why there's so many cases of people attempting to suicide almost everyday. .
Well, everyone got to survive in the world. . And I might as well die trying to get through my life everyday. .

Who noes? Suddenly, a meteor falls down to earth, or animals suddenly create chaos and dominate the world. . Or hell breaks loose and all demons got unleashed on earth. .

Random memories. . Very random. . .

- Michelle drew on my hand. . This is called. . 'vandalism' XD
January 2008


- Got the habit to write on my hand liao. . Wrote my schedule for the day. .


- Apparently, I liked to take pictures of my hand. . Maybe cuz my face is ugly, so I started taking pictures of my hand. . SWT!


- Cannot see de. . In heaven ar?! LOL


- Behind my school, kokurikulum activites "belajar membakar kentang"
March 2009


- Chee Cheung Fan, brought by my daddy. . Look tasty rite?!


- Look delicious rite? Delicious rite?! T.T sob. . Makes me want to eat it. . But also abit tak sampai hati to eat because look so nice jor. .
- Because I didn't buy it, so what to do? Just take a picture oo. . It lasted longer. . Wakakakaka.
October 2008, at Jusco Cheras Selatan, Bees. .


- My favourite deparment at the shopping mall. . What's better than Candy & Chocolate? Ice-cream and snacks rite? Hehehe. .
From Jusco Cheras Selatan

Some memories. .

I've promised to post more pictures but uhms. .
My handphone's camera really rosak liao!!
But I'm not gonna break this promise. .
So. . get ready! Lots of pictures are coming up!

These pictures are all past photos that I've taken.
Some were just last week, some few months old, and some are even last year ago. .

Enjoy!~

These are all precious memories. . For you and me.


- sitting in the middle of the road, in front of the school gates
- taken February 2009


- pasukan sekolah PBSM practicing berkawat with two extra 'monkeys' (XD) behind from pasukan Pengakap - taken July 2009


- Wei Loon and Christine playing handphones at school. .
- when 'BRAIN JUICE' game was famous in our school, everyone played the game, competing to see who can get higher score.
- taken July 2nd 2009


- when we've got kokurikulum, and was waiting for the teacher to arrive. .
- taken June 25th 2009


- after few mintues later. .
- this is what happened when two gays got bored and started. . 'gay-ing' at the school foyer. (i'm kidding! XP)

3rd day of exam. . .

3rd day of exam. . (wondering if I'm going to write a post everyday during the exam, LOL)

I'm trying my best to keep this blog alive. . But I think I'm killing my readers. . Sorry for making you guys read so much letters and alphabets. . I know these days my posts are fulls of words. .

Today is Biology Paper 2 and Sejarah Paper 2. .

I'm not gonna tell you how was it (because you'll find me complaining and complaining non-stop. .)
So, I'll just describe it in two words : NOT good!

Anyways, I had to stay back for choir practice. . And it was fun. . Wei Loon (my friend and classmate) was going to be our conductor during this performance. . I think he was nervous. . But he manage to make people laugh. . When I sing sing I look at him, I laughed. .

But actually. . when Song Ching Wah (our choir conductor who couldn't make it this saturday and Wei Loon had to substitute for him) almost always manage to make me laugh more. .

I remember when I first first masuk choir club, I see him conduct, I cannot stop laughing de! During midway of performances I also wanna laugh, but tahan tahan nia. . (^^) Hehehe. .

Wei Loon did better today than he was last tuesday. . (^^) Congratz!~

We'll be singing this saturday sempena Hari Merdeka at our school at. . 7.45am! Early morning!~ (TT) Not only that oo, we'll be singing Bahtera Merdeka and. . Rasa Sayang. . Omgosh!
Yes, it's the song that goes, "Rasa sayang, hey, rasa sayang sayang hey~ " and so on. . LOL

I promise to upload more photos as soon as I get my handphone de camera working. . My hp's camera abit 'sot sot' de. .

I wrote this when I was doing my Chemistry exam. . I had spare times (why? because I don't know how to answer anymore questions so I kinda gave up and started scribbling at a piece of empty paper)

I wrote this when half of my brain malfunctions because of the Chemistry exam. . The exam made my brain short-circuit. . So. . I know this is really bad and it barely rhythms but. . it just what I felt like writing. . To express some of my feelings. . Don't be so perasan and get offended. . (^^)

How can someone be that cruel?
I should've never loved you,
Now I'm trapped in this maze,
I can't find my way,
I want my friends and my bao bei,
Go back and recall the troubles you make,
My tears had run dried,
It's time to find someone I like.

My charming prince will follow me,
to shopping malls and never leaves.
He will love me forever more,
Make me laugh and make me warm.
Loving someone isn't a crime,
when you find the one in your life.

2nd day of exam. .

Chemistry paper 1 & 2 and EST paper 1. .

When I got up at the morning, I was already 10 minutes late. .
After 10 minutes rushing to get my clothes on and eating my breakfast, it started. . raining!

Heavy rain sumor. . With lighting sumor. . Every time I blinked my eyes, I see white lights flashing before my eyes (lighting oo)

My mommy had to follow me down with an umbrella because the rain was just too heavy!
All the time I was on my van, the rains got louder and heavier. .

Worse, I was scared stiff whenever I saw the lightning. . It's not like I have phobia to lightning or that I hide in my closet whenever there's rain storm. . I was just startled.

Worst, I sat right next to the door. . I had to open the door for the students to get in sumor. . It's like, I'm the doorgirl and I had to open up the door and close the door for the students. . I guess it wasn't only me. . People who sits beside the door had to become the doorman. . It's like. . a tradition. .

RAWR! Because I had to open the door, I got wet and my hands are like ice because kena the rain. . So damn cold oo. .

And as it rains, I begun to think about my day. I was having exam and I knew I didn't study enough. . And. .

I was thinking, the rains and lighting might be a sign from god to ask me to study more. .
And the more I think about it, the heavier the rains gets. . Call me crazy, I don't care. . Even if it was a sign from god, I didn't do anything. .

And here I am, not studying!

Doing my blog and writing nonsense as the rains get heavier. . Yes!
It's raining! Again!

One day rain twice. . This morning and now (at 8.30pm). . Maybe it is a sign. . For me to study. .

It's getting heavier again. . And I can't even watch Astro. . LOL

I'm not done writing my blog yet. . One last post before I go. . play FB! LOL

Rawr. . Exam liao!!

It's exam liao!! YES!!

Omgosh, first day of exam was tortures. . Add math.
Paper 2 first, then paper 1. .
I wasn't even trying when I got the paper 2. . I skipped questions and questions.
How can I be that stupid nehs?! Yes, I can. Because, I am stupid.
Anyways, I was so carefree. . Like it wasn't even exam lai de. .
I guess I was hoping that it was just an exercise. And teacher will come and give me the answers and all I had to do was copy it down.
I was still half-awake and was dreaming. As if teacher will come running in the class and give me the answers to the exam. .
I make a mental note to myself that I will not only do my best in the exam but will also score high. . I didn't say I made a vow, because it'll sounds like I broke my own vows. . I don't like that. . But it's true, I wasn't able to keep my promise to a friend when she make me promise to study everyday! I'm sorry to her, and to myself. . If I won't study, then I will receive the consequences.
I'm 95% sure that I will fail my add math. .
The only thing I'm worrying about is whether I can get a score higher than my previous score (which is only 19%). .

Second days of exam was as worse as the first day. .
Chemistry paper 2, English for Science and Technology paper 1, and Chemistry paper 1.
The day before my exam, I tried studying at home. I really took out my chemistry books.
But unfortunately, it was already late at night (around 11pm) when I took my books out. And I was sitting in front of my television. .
I ended up reading for only 15 minutes and the television manage to have my undivided attention until it was 1am. I tried reading again, but only manage to read the chapter 5.
(Exam coming out chp 5 and chp 6 only)
And chapter 6 remains untouched. .

-- "I miss you so much it almost felt like a crime." --

I want a time machine. I want to go back in time.
Yes, I have regrets.

I want to go back and do the things I failed to do so.
I want to tell someone what I actually felt.
I want to apologize for the time when I hurt them.

I was childish and now I regret the things I have done.

This is life.

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No one can see pass the facade she created,
No one knows what she had done to them,
Because behind that gentle warming smile,
Is a heart corrupted by malice and vile,

She's trapped in this labyrinth,
and will never find her way out.

She screamed and shouted and struggled--

No one heard her.

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How can anyone hear her?

Even when she screamed so loudly.

Lost within the labyrinth.

Please, rescue her and take her away from this place!

Feelings.. & Wishes...

This is dedicated to some of my friends.. (^^)

Drawing #3...

- this was drawn quite long ago.. but I'm pretty sure it was this year.. lol..



-I've colored only the necklace.. Because without the necklace, this picture will be very plain.
Can you read the texts in this picture? lol

-NEW MOON- is coming...

(>.<) I love Twilight so much.. And now the 2nd movie, New Moon is coming, I'm just so excited. (Although, I prefer the book better than the movie itself.. But maybe the 2nd movie will outdo the 1st movie, and hopefully so..)

Drawing #2...

Another of my creation. This time, I used 'pen tool' instead of 'lasso tool'. It's easier and less frustrating.. I was rushing by the time I was colouring the skirt.. I didn't know what colour to use for her skirt and in the end, I went with green (just like her blouse). I wanted to have brown and green, because I think it suits her. The thing on her neck is a necklace with bell dangling. It was suppose to be the same as the thing around her waist/skirt but it doesn't look like it. Finally, it looked like this. (-.-'') Weird..



This is the drawing without the coloring.

I started drawing with the shape of her face followed by her hair. I was thinking about Sakura from the Tsubasa Chronicle.. and ended up with this hairstyle.. Lol. She looked worried because.. Sakura was always worrying whenever Syaoron went to fight badies, so... LOL!

This drawing was drawn long ago (around january or was it last year november?) compared to the drawing at my previous post, that drawing was drawn just 2 days ago.

The drawing from my precious post took more than an hour for the colouring. This.. (-_-'') took a whole day. Yes, a WHOLE DAY! Lol.. But of course I got take breaks in between. I ate, watched animes, listen to song, chat, and took a nap. lolx.

I took a picture of this drawing at 11.00am when I woke up. I finished everything at around 9.30pm.

Comment~ Comment~ Thx! (^^)

ps: when I looked back at both of my drawing.. so weird.. both drawing have different style.. looked like got two different people draw de, am i right? do you feel the same?